Ahh fall…the time of endings and beginnings both, lovely saturated colors and sleeping in too late, coffee and hoodies, crisp nights and short days. I get the urge to travel in the fall and spring more strongly than the rest of the year combined because it was our habitual move time. It was about to get too cold somewhere and just right somewhere else, and it usually meant floating away to the next spot like dandelion fluff. It gets a little easier each year to stay put, as I grow older and more settled. I hate saying older and settled. Those two words were never part of my life-view. I wanted change, constant excitement, wandering, new experiences, never-stay-put and a hundred different loves. I still want all those things except for all the loves. It makes me too scattered and takes up too much time. I’m happy with my one, and 10-20 non-person-type loves, like beer and pizza and Halloween.
Is it just that we settle for less as we grow up? Or is it that we are more content with life as it is right now? I like to think it’s the latter, but who the fuck knows. Settle for too long and all you end up with is dead.
2 thoughts on “Roads on Her Face #35: Winter is Coming”
I hear what you’re saying about “older” and “settled”. All my life, I’ve known there was more. More things to do, to experience, to be–and for a significant part of my life, I followed that life expression…All I can say, in my life experiences, is that there are times for both the change, constant excitement and wandering with new experiences–and then sometimes, we are simply led to the more quiet times…the times to heal up, the times to just take time to breathe deeply and absorb it all in. The inhalation and exhalation of life’s breath with a time for everything. So, here’s to everything wonderful that life has to offer. All the joys, all the pain, all the sorrow and all the wisdom. I can say from personal experience that it is definitely all worth it!
It gets tiring after a while for sure, the constant search for experience and “happy” and the desperate need to leave no stone unturned, no thing undone. I’m calming down a little, learning to take things a day at a time. It’s been so good for me. Thank you for your insightful comment!