Your negligent hands around my throat, compressing the very air
Compressing my meditation on myself, my internal worth to a pinpoint of white on black
Craving you, breathing you, I want to break your bones with my teeth and errant thoughts
Your brother ran naked after my car, tears on his cheeks and a bruised heart
While you stared with pale eyes through the rain-streaked window, thousand-yard stare
The stare you stared while they took her out behind the bushes, set down weapons
And you listened to her scream, and you watched the sand swirl, and you did your job.
Because we do our jobs, because of this I want you to break me, I want you.
In our own desert, with the break between us chasm-like, I reach out over it
Only to feel the cold wind of bottomless depths. I smoke a cigarette, though I don’t smoke
I walk alone in the rock garden until you come to find me, out of duty, only duty
Call of duty, a game to you and obloquy to me. The shame of the hands and my neck
And the way my body craves it, is a supplicant to the sham of your adamantine volition.
Ferine, I burrow toward your heart, or what beats within you, I own your skin while you watch
From leagues apart, from leagues above, clinical, detached with only your own words to comfort you.